So Last weekend I ran London Marathon! It was my second ever marathon and I ran it for Crohns and Colitis UK, which is a cause close to my heart as it has affected my partner quite significantly since being diagnosed just over a year ago. I finished the first half marathon in a PB time of 1 hour 39 minutes, and after some serious issues with cramps made the second half a struggle, I finished overall in 4 hours 25 minutes. I finished the race caught up in a lot of frustration and disappointment if I’m honest. I wanted a sub 3.30 time and felt betrayed by my body, and like I had let down all those who believed in me and expected great things!
When I finally sat down and considered the outcome though I realised I was being hard on myself. Its easy to get caught up in your goals and feel like you have failed if you don’t achieve them. But I didn’t fail! I beat my previous marathon time by 5 minutes! I beat my previous half marathon time by 3 minutes! And most importantly I didn’t give up! I limped, walked, jogged the full distance and did my part for a great charity and for a very worthy cause. By achieving what I did, even though it wasn’t what I wanted, I raised £1,030 for charity and participated in an event which most people never get the chance to do. But because I judged myself too harshly I tarnished my enjoyment of the day.
Don’t let yourself get so caught up in your goals that you forget to enjoy the journey. Sometimes the journey is the best bit.